Colossian Sermon Series: Emily Dickinson Has Her Day in Court

The Rev. Fred G. Garry - July 29 - August 19, 2001

I have never seen a moor,
I never saw the sea;
Yet know I how the heather looks,
And what a wave must be,

I never spoke with God,
Nor visited in heaven;
Yet certain am I of the spot
As if the chart were given.

                    - Emily Dickinson


    During the next four weeks I will be offering a sermon series from Paul's letter to the Colossians. Although the letter is complete, it has a beginning and an end, there is something missing. The missing element, I believe, is a witness.
    Throughout Paul's letters there is sense that he is arguing a case in court. In many places and different ways he uses legal language and even puts his words in forms that could easily have been utilized in the courts of his days, much like a "brief" or an "affidavit" of our own time. Yet in all of his letters, he seems to be the only one making the case.
    Hence in the coming weeks I will seek to introduce a material witness, a corroborating voice. Throughout the span of the last two millennia there are certainly a host of witnesses to chose from. But I can think of no one better than Emily Dickinson. Her voice provides both a challenge and glimpse of beauty. My hope is that her understanding of the soul and the "curious earth" it roams will bring some grace to the courtroom.

July 29, 2001 - "Faithful as a Labrador"
Colossians 1: 5-6 - "The word of the truth, the gospel that come to you."

August 5, 2001 - "All Rivers Run to the Sea, But the Sea is not Full"
Colossians 2: 10 - "You have come to fullness in him."

August 12, 2001 - "The Preacher Told Me My Sins Have been Forgiven"
Colossians 2:13-14 - "When he forgave us all our trespasses, erasing the record that stood against us with its legal demands. He set this aside, nailing it to the cross."

August 19, 2001 - "The New Self"
Colossians 3:6 - "Clothed with a new self"

[Emily Dickinson's Poems and some of her Ancestry]


Faithful as a Labrador

The Rev. Fred G. Garry - July 29, 2001
Texts: Hosea 2 and Colossians 1

Arcturus is his other name,
I'd rather call him star!
It's so unkind of science
To go and interfere!

I pull a flower from the woods,
A monster with a glass
Computes the stamens in a breath,
And has her in a class.

Whereas I took the butterfly
Aforetime in my hat,
He sits erect in cabinets,
The clover bells forgot.

What once was heaven is zenith now.
Where I proposed to go
When time's brief masquerade was done,
Is mapped, and charted too!

What if the poles should frisk about
And stand upon their heads!
I hope I'm ready for the worst,
Whatever prank betides!

Perhaps the kingdom of Heaven's changed!
I hope the children there
Won't be new fashioned when I come,
And laugh at me, and stare!

I hope the father in the skies
Will lift his little girl,
Old-fashioned, naughty, everything,
Over the stile of pearl!
                    - Emily Dickinson


    I am partial toward a certain breed of dog. Most people are. Some enjoy the small dog; there those who are convinced that a mutt from the pound is always the way the to go. You have your fancy dogs, service dogs. For myself, though, I have to confess a partiality toward Labradors.
    Labradors work for me. Faithful to the end and hearty, a lab is big enough so I wont break the creature, but not so large that they require two seats in a car. Most important for our family right now, labs pass the kid test. We have a family dog, Oliver, a lab. Oliver has had every appendage and part of his body pulled, squashed, and checked to see if it would come off. For all die wear he is none the worse. He is very faithful to the little ones, which he should be considering he is fed well beneath the high chair.
    More than this though is the joy of seeing the dog outside. I've had two labs and both have considered any standing body of water a second home, any trail leading off into a wooded area a standing invitation. This is a sight to see and a great joy. Labs don't walk in the woods they seem bent on becoming one with every bush, hole, or unsuspecting critter. Before I wax too romantic here though I feel obliged to mention this is also their most annoying trait. They run off, seemingly hearing the call of the wild, at the least opportune times and with the least amount of consideration they run.
    There is a kind of wild took that comes over them, something deep is triggered in them, and they just need to run, I don't blame a Labrador for this. I believe this is how God made them. In the grand scheme of creation all Labradors were intended to come complete with no less than thirty acres and a pond. There is something in them that is never able to be leashed, to be controlled. At some point, no matter the training, a lab is going to run, usually when you are just about to leave for a social engagement requiring attire not meant for brush and bog. It is a genetic sort of thing most likely.
    I am not quite sure if this part of the Labrador could ever be determined and quantified. Like Emily Dickinson and her poem, I don't know if science could ever truly capture this necessary desire to explore. But it is there deep inside the Labrador. I see this in children too. Sometimes in adults, but almost always in children. Most children have the same response to thirty acres and a pond that a Labrador does: it is as if the kingdom of heaven has come.
    When we lived in Ohio we had twenty acres and a creek. Not quite the total bill, but no one seemed to complainspecially the children and certainly not the dog. They could not get out of the car fast enough to run and explore what most would see as just farm fields and woods. But it was something more to them, something that rang true deep inside of them. There was something that came to them in that place, a kind of joy and unbridled freedom. They had room to explore, throw things you could never throw in a house, look at things that had lots of bugs, and crawl under and inside places that were certain to get you dirty.
    Now there comes a time in life when such places don't have the same appeal. I have to admit as they tromped through the brush I cut a path so I would have an easier time getting to where I like to sit. As they explored the houses made by large limbs felled by the last storm, I considered where it would be good to actually build a house. Yet I too found myself laying these aside and simply just exploring and enjoying the fact that this place was not developed, not built. Always in that moment where I explored like the dog, like the kids, there was a sense of freedom and peace wafting over me.
    Although Henry David Thoreau actually went and lived in this place, this sense of freedom, I have yet to hear someone who seemed to understand it better than Emily Dickinson. It was as if she looked at life through an opening in the woods, rather than the other way around. So many of her poems belie an intimate knowledge of the woods in Massachusetts where she lived her life. She knew the flowers that came beyond the garden, the song of birds in their season, and stars by their luster. Mostly though she knew the sense of wonder and the freedom it brings.
    Emily Dickinson lived in the century before last from 1830 till 1886. She would have known the abolitionist movement in the churches and the college her father founded; she lived through the reports of the civil war that came to the North; and, as she describes in her poem, the rise of science in America. It would not be a stretched to determine that she was less than enamored with laboratories and microscopes. Throughout much of her poetry there is a kind of visceral reaction to the attempt to figure out nature, to calculate it, to control it.
    There was something in Emily Dickinson that wanted to let life come to her, to receive the stars, the flower, the butterfly, and heaven simply as a gift to be enjoyed. 'Me idea of categories, computations, control, and charts was anathema. These were all doomed to the never-ending quest of humankind to shape the world, make the truth rather than live in the mysterious gift of creation. Emily knew there was a price for this, worrying if living life in such a way would make her laughable. "I hope the children [in heaven] won't be new fashioned when I come, and laugh at me and stare."
    Yet her worry didn't have enough strength to undo what seems most beautiful in her. The unbridled sense of being a child in the midst of God. So often in her poetry she would speak of heaven as a "home" she longed for, but held at bay so she wouldn't miss the play of creation, the dance of wild flowers. With imagination and love she let hope carry the day. "I hope the father in the skies will lift his little girl, oldfashioned, naughty, everything, over the stile of pearl."
    In poems tied in lace kept in boxes till after her death Emily Dickinson changed the landscape of America literature. She didn't change science, or, she hasn't truly changed science yet. Perhaps someday. But she did change the way we look at life, at the unharrowed ground, at clover bells, and indeed the kingdom of heaven. Her poetry broke aft the rules and created a new place to explore. It was as if she unleashed a Labrador into the woods.
    I have all confidence that the Apostle Paul was not as enamored with the color of Spring flowers, I have it with good authority that he never chased a Labrador through the woods, and most likely he may have been a bit impatient with a person like Emily Dickinson and her curious habits. But one thing is for sure they walked 'a similar path: the path of freedom. For each there was only one way to live and that was free from the impulse to control, to chart, to determine. They were each imbued with a restless spirit ever exploring the riches and beauty of God's mercy.
    For Paul this was not always the case. He had lived a good portion of his fife fully convinced that the human spirit could be controlled, could be tamed, could become an ordered rule of conduct. And then on a fateful day on a Damascus road the truth came to him, the Spirit of Christ called to him, blinded him, and in essence took away every fiber of his former life. For on the Damascus road Paul discovered that the truth is not what you find, but who finds you. Having lived a life of rules and regulations, a life controlled by laws and fractions of infractions, he lost it all when the Spirit of the Living God found him.
    Like Emily Dickinson, he became convinced that the truth was not something you compute or determine. The truth is the spirit of God that comes to you, breathes a freshness of life changing freedom into your very soul. Truth is being in the midst of love not determining the proper course of action. God could not have chosen a man who was farther from freedom than Paul. Hence God could not have chosen a better person to defend the freedom of the Holy Spirit once he had experienced it. For in all his days, in each moment of ministry, there was never a time when Paul was seduced by the desire to control the truth. He erred ever on the side of freedom.
    In our passage that we read today we have this before us. The Colossians were a young church who were being led to put aside freedom for the control of Gnosticism. Gnosticism was a contemporary philosophy that argued: through selfenlightenment we can discover the truth and be freed from all worldly entanglements. Some would say Gnosticism is very much alive and well today. And its great challenge is that it sounds so good. Yet at its very heart is a grave rejection of freedom. For those who have been set free in Christ have experienced the truth, the gospel, that comes to us. The gospel is what discovers us; Gnosticism suggests the truth is what you come to, what you discover.
    In true Pauline fashion he begins his letter to the Colossians imploring them to remember the basis of their faith: "the word of truth, the gospel that has come to you." Like Emily Dickinson Paul believed that the saving truth, the truth that sets you free is the one that comes to you. We can learn, grow in knowledge, even seek out new understandings, but as soon as we seek to gain control of the truth, as soon as we seek to determine the truth, to place it in a cabinet clover bells forgot, we have lost it. And it was this sense of truth, this place of freedom that was the church for Paul.
    In each of his letters just as we are seeing in Colossians today Paul sought to protect the freedom of the Church. It would have been very easy for Paul to lead the churches he founded to become synagogues based on the law. Many would come after him and try to do this, Galatians being the greatest example. It would have been simple for him to institute a rigid set of rules. Yet instead of rules, laws, and controls Paul wrote to the Colossian church to remind them they were borne of freedom. And that the unique quality that is the church is freedom. It is the place wherein God is crafting freedom. Like the fields bring forth grain and the trees their fruit: the church is meant to bring forth freedom.
    There is something deep inside each of us, a soul led by a spirit that is ever seeking freedom. We unleash this part of us in places that are unfit, in ways that hurt us, in philosophies that ultimately destroy all that is good in us. To the Colossians Paul wrote reminding them that God had begun a miraculous place in their midst, a place of freedom. In this place the soul could be set free, we could explore and wander through what is best in life. This place is a church.
    When Paul wrote the Colossians he could have said many things. In his opening words though, he gently tries to remind of the glory God had crafted, saying, "you have heard of this hope before in the word of the truth, the gospel that has come to you." By this gentle word he sought to remind them of the remarkable joy they have been given, that has come to them. It is so easy to fall into the belief that we can control life, the truth, what is best. It is so easy to become convinced that we can determine our own course. Thanks be to God we have this word still, this truth, this gospel that can call us back. Thanks be to God we have word to remind us that in this place we can be found by the Spirit of God; we can be free. Amen.


All Rivers Run to the Sea, But the Sea is not Full

The Rev. Fred G. Garry - August 5, 2001
Texts: Ecclesiastes and Colossians 2

I had been hungry all the years;
My noon had come, to dine;
I trembling, drew the table near,
And touched the curious wine.

'T was this on tables I had seen,
When turning, hungry, lone,
I looked in windows, for the wealth
I could not hope to own.

I did not know the ample bread,
'T was so unlike the crumb
The birds and I had often shared
In Nature's dining-room.

The plenty hurt me, 't was so new,
Myself felt ill and odd,
As berry of a mountain bush
Transplanted to the road.

Nor was I hungry; so I found
That hunger was a way
Of persons outside windows,
The entering takes away.
                    - Emily Dickinson


    I have a hard time reading the Apostle Paul. I know many people find difficulty with his writing. Some consider him arcane a kind of "walking antique." Others hear a kind of legalism and desire to control. There are also those who consider him too narrow, too focused on idea that Jesus is the Christ. Yet none of these are what gives me difficulty. In the span of history I still consider Paul somewhat novel and new. My children are still surprised that I consider music written in the 20th century as too new, in desperate need of time to mature and weather a bit. As for the notion of legalism, I find him a radical. Anyone who errs on the side of freedom and was willing to leave all the churches he founded as much as Paul did could never be considered a person dying for control.
    In regard to Jesus being the Christ, this is where the problem lies. I take this as his first great confidence and as mine as well. Hence, I find a certain amount of freedom in his words. I trust this claim; Jesus is the Christ and savior, the Son of God, in whom the fullness of deity dwells in the flesh. A mystery, certainly. A mystery in shared confidence leads to reflection. Here is where the problem lies. I find it hard to read Paul without my mind wandering everywhere. There is a kind of license to explore and without much hesitation my mind will travel near and far making it difficult to stay focused on the text itself.
    For instance, our reading this morning has the word "fullness" in it. So throughout the week my mind wandered in and out of this notion. Full, being full, filled, in Greek there is also the connotation of completion or perfection, and in the way it is used today there is a connotation that we are filled in Christ unto a kind of completion. Having read this and done initial checking and reference work my mind was immediately led to lasagna.
    During our first year in Princeton I was an intern at a suburban church in East Brunswick, New Jersey. My year there was informative, helpful, and a something I remember fondly. Although there were numerous events and moments that stand out, I will always remember that year as "the time of lasagna." Lasagna.
    Each Sunday I would come to church with Kathy and the kids. After Sunday School and church she would take the kids home and I would eat lunch with the senior pastor and the other intern. As we ate we would discuss the service, theology, the life of the church. After lunch we were given a host of opportunities to explore what parish life was all about. But come 4:00 we were given directions to a family home.
    Each week we would eat dinner with a different family in the church. In New Jersey this means you are led into a different world each week. There were cosmopolitan families, retired couples, Jersey natives, and New York commuters. There were two things that held each week together. The first was that each one of these families was Presbyterian and a member of the same church. The other factor was lasagna. Every week for nine months, lasagna was the main course.
    Near the end of the year people shared some of the rationale with me. "We heard you were a big eater and enjoy lasagna. And so we all made lasagna." I don't know exactly what this says about me, but I kind of liked it. Certainly I now see myself as a kind of lasagna connoisseur. One evening though truly stretched me.
    This was the best lasagna I had ever eaten. No. Let me back up. The evening started with lots of appetizers, followed by a salad. And then a serving of lasagna as big as the plate could hold. Well, as I said, this was the best. And after 40 plus evenings I say this with authority. Even though it was large I finished this delicious offering and when offered more agreed believing a small portion would be brought out. Much to my surprise another serving as big as a plate emerged.
    Again challenged by the wonderful taste and the desire not to offend, I ate that one as well. At this point a fullness came over me I had never experienced before. I think I carved out a new dimension of sated. Somehow, I am not quite sure how, it must have been the pure hubris of my youth, but I was able, barely to cat a piece of pumpkin pie as well. When we finished and left the house I became fully convinced of the need for elastic pants.
    Paul said, we have become full in him, in Christ. After two enormous helpings of lasagna I encountered a fullness I did not know was possible and fortunately have not encountered again. I was full, perhaps even beyond full. While technically there is a correspondence here. I am not sure this is what Paul had in mind. But you can see how difficult it is for me to read someone like Paul. Now, if this was it perhaps I could just consider it a challenge as opposed to a difficulty. Yet, no sooner had I finished reflecting on lasagna my mind wandered again.
    Being in San Diego last month reminded me of another moment of fullness. When our son Joshua was two I would take him to the museums at Balboa Park. This is a beautiful setting and a lovely place to walk or ride. I had a seat for him on the back of a mountain bike and we saw a fair part of the city, but the park was a weekly event. The first leg of the trip was a stop by the grocery store to purchase a cheap bag of birdseed. Son strapped in and bird seed purchased we would head to the Museum of Natural History.
    We never went inside the museum', we sat outside on a bench. Once seated we would take the bag and empty it on the ground. Perched all along the museum were hundreds of pigeons. After the seeds would hit, the pigeons would descend in impressive numbers. In a matter of moments we were surrounded by birds. Their sounds, their numbers, their coming and going was a feast for the senses. Joshua would generally last about sixty - ninety seconds. Excitement would fill every part of him; there was a kind of wildness in his eyes, until finally he would jump off the bench and go deep inside the sea of pigeons. Not impressed with his entrance the pigeons would rise as one and return to the museum's roof.
    For just an instance though there was a kind of pigeon storm that would surround him. It was as if he were in a bird tornado. I can't recall seeing a moment of more pure delight, of fullness. He was full of happiness. Again, Paul said we are made full in Christ. There is a fullness that comes to us. In that moment Joshua was full of little boy wonder and excitement. While more sublime and certainly a good deal more meaningful than the fullness that comes from lasagna, this is still not quite what Paul has in mind. And try as I could to regain a sense of focus at this point I was led astray yet one more time.
    Fullness, being full, being made full led me to remember the poem of Emily Dickinson we read today. It is one of her poems that has made a deep impression upon me. First on account of the reference to the Lord's Supper, the curious wine and bread. Second would be the notion of being inside and outside. Emily Dickinson is definitely considered an outsider, having the aura of a recluse, but it says here she entered in, and the entering took the hunger away. And then there are the references to eating breadcrumbs with birds and being a mountain berry bush transplanted to the road. What really stays with me though is the one line, "the plenty hurt me."
    Now if she were referring to having ingested vast quantities of lasagna I can understand that the plenty would hurt. But I don't believe this is what she is saying. Nor is she speaking to the kind of ecstatic fullness that can come over us. So filled with life and excitement and wonder we get hurt. The pigeons were harmless for Joshua, yet as many a weekend warrior will attest it is easy in our moments of fullness to over do, and to get hurt. The plenty hurt me. I believe she was referring to the plenty, the fullness Paul speaks of. And in doing so raises a strange truth.
    It is easier to live in want than in fullness. Now this could be interpreted in terms of money and social status. Life is somewhat easier when you have nothing, and thus, nothing to lose. Many times I have heard people wax romantically about the depression of the 1930s as a time when people really cared for one another, that somehow it was easier to be a neighbor when all were suffering. Although somewhat akin to this, what I am speaking to is the truth that it is easier to live with little hope than with great hope; it is easier to live with offence than with faith; it is easier to be upset than it is to be forgiving.
    For the fullness Paul spoke of was not a physical or material completion, nor was it a kind of excitement or fervor. The church has misinterpreted this fullness in many ways. The fullness he spoke of was a fullness of joy, a fullness of peace, a fullness of hope, a fullness of faith. And what Emily Dickinson points to and what has led me astray for the better part of week is that the fullness Paul speaks of, the plenty that hurt the poet, is a great challenge.
    The challenge in this instance is that it is easier to live with the kind of pessimism and resignation the writer of Ecclesiastes flirts with. Hope is demanding; faith is daunting. Love is not placated or tolerated only embraced. And this is where there can be a kind of wounding. For when this fullness really comes to the fore it becomes very difficult to read Paul. The difficulty no longer resides with a wandering mind, but with a focus that is all too clear.
    Paul had two great confidences. The first was Jesus Christ. In him the fullness of God dwelled in the flesh. This truth dismantled his whole life and rebuilt it for the sake of the gospel, to preach the freedom of the cross, in him we are forgiven. Yet his other confidence which at times rivals the first was the church. Paul believed in the church. He knew we are all curious people with limitations and hearts ever prone to wander. I am sure none of you have ever wandered in your mind as I have preached. No. Scratch that. I hope you have wandered. As I believe the Apostle would have wanted the Colossians to wander. For there is a great joy in being free to explore.
    Being free to explore and wander is what the church was to Paul. Hence he kept reminding the Colossians of their basic trust, the gospel, the freedom and truth that has come to you. Paul's confidence was that in the church God had crafted a place to wander and find the freedom and fullness of life. His letters suggest a confidence and patience that are great. The novelty of the church, the radical shape it kept taking, the lives changed and transformed, this was his abiding hope. Hence he would write to these churches from prison and speak of joy and a power able to overcome all obstacles. He believed this was the gift of the church. Somehow the world would be changed by this curious bread and wine.
    Let your mind wander this week in the fullness that has come to you in Christ. Search far and wide for the shape of fullness. Don't stop with gastronomic failures or moments borne of birdseed. Ask and consider: is my life full of faith, full of joy, full of hope? Remember it is easier to live with less. Bring the answers you find here next week. For it is here that the limitations of life are met and exceeded. Here in the midst of worship and prayer, fellowship and reflection, here is where the moments of faith and sacrifice are begotten so the world may be reborn in image of Christ. Amen.


The Preacher Told Me My Sins have been Forgiven

The Rev. Fred G. Garry - August 12, 2001
Texts: Isaiah I and Colossians 2

Afraid? Of whom am I afraid?
Not death; for who is he?
The porter of my father's lodge
As much abasheth me.

Of life? 'T were odd I fear a thing
That comprehendeth me
In one or more existences
At Deity's decree.

Of resurrection? Is the east
Afraid to trust the mom
With her fastidious forehead?
As soon impeach my crown!
                    - Emily Dickinson


One evening as the sun went down
And the jungle fires were burning,
Down the track cam a hobo hiking,
He said, "boys, I not turning
I'm heading for a land that's far away
Beside die crystal fountain
I'll see you all this coming fall
In the big rock candy mountain.

In the big rock candy mountain
It's a land that's fair and bright,
The handouts grow on bushes
And you sleep out every night.
The boxcars all are empty
And the sun shines every day
I'm bound to go
Where there ain't no snow
Where the sleet don't fall
And the winds don't blow
In the big rock candy mountain.

In the big rock candy mountain
You never change socks
And the little streams of alcohol
Come trickling down the rocks
0 the shacks all have to tip their hats
And the railway bulls are blind
There's a lake of stew
And gingerale too
And you can paddle
All around in a big canoe
In the big rock candy mountain.

In the big rock candy mountain
The jails are made of tin.
You can slip right out again
As soon as they put you in.
There ain't no short handled shovels,
No axes, saws or picks,
I'm bound to stay
Where you sleep all day
Where they hung the jerk
Who invented work
In the big rock candy mountain.

    Attributed to Harry McClintock, "The Big Rock Candy Mountain" describes a life of ease every hobo dreamed of, a life of plenty without any cares. It was a similar life that Everett described to Pete and Delmar; it must have been pretty close to this. Everett was a smooth talking thief who convinced two fellow prisoners to make a run for it, to leave the long days of hard labor that was a prison in the 1930s in Mississippi. He convinced them to risk a long extension to their sentence to follow him in search of buried treasure that when found would give them a life much like the big rock candy mountain.
    So off they went. Their exploits and adventures were depicted in a recent movie, "0 Brother where art thou." Suffice it to say the path that led to their eventual freedom was not quite what they expected. Bedazzled by sirens, enlisted by George "Baby Face" Nelson in a bank robbery, and beat by a bible salesman for their money and their car, Everett, Pete, and Delmar saw some peaks and valleys along the road leading to the big rock candy mountain.
    One occasion is very memorable for me. Not long after their escape the three men were feasting on the gamy delicacy of roasted gopher, when they heard some singing. The simple song offered by a congregation gathering at the river is haunting, asking who shall wear a starry crown, and praying good lord show me the way, and pleading, o brothers let's go down to the river to pray, let's go down come on down. The plea came to Delmar and Pete and they followed. Entering the water and being baptized.
    As they left the river Delmar's excitement swept over him. "The preacher told me my sins have been forgiven. I am free. Ain't no man has anything on me, I have been redeemed. All my sins have been washed away. I am forgiven." Apologizing for his obvious disdain Everett encouraged Pete and Delmar not to get too excited about this. That the robberies and lies and misdeeds of their past while forgotten by the Lord Almighty have not been washed away from the penal records of the state of Mississippi and those folks tend not be as forgiving as the Lord above or the preacher.
    It is the last line that always sticks with me; those folks tend not to be as forgiving as the Lord Almighty is. They tend not to be as forgiving. As the story moves forward, Everett's remark albeit lacking in piety proves true. The redemption borne of the river while meaningful doesn't seem to carry any power or warrant with the prison posse that will not rest till these three are found. So Everett, Pete, and Delmar search for the big rock candy mountain covertly, hiding and running in fear of the law.
    While the outlandish exploits of these three transcend the day to day lives we Eve there is a strange connection, a connection so strong I found myself swept along with diem. Again, I feel I know Summit Avenue pretty well and it is with a sense of confidence that I suggest most of you are not bank robbing escaped convicts who enjoy a life of living on the lamb. Yet on the other hand each of us has a kind of big rock candy mountain, a kind of Shangri la, something Jesus called the Kingdom of God, although I don't know if his included a lake of stew and gingerale too with blind bull dogs and so on. But it's there.
    And right beside this dream, this life without tear or sorrow, a place of peace, there is a baptism. Some of us have been dunked, some of us sprinkled. But baptized we are. So right beside this land far away, some have called it over yonder, the land by and by, is a forgiveness, a washing away, a telling, you've been redeemed, "The pastor told me my sins have been forgiven."
    So in between every birth and death are a dream and a promise. The dream is that someday, somewhere, somehow all will be made new, all suffering and sorrow will be swept away. And the dream has a cast of characters: there are young and old there. There's the lost child, the father whose passed, the love ever grieved. 'Somewhere the dream has these dear ones, somewhere beyond the Jordan.
    In between life and death there is this dream and the promise. The promise that in spite of our sins, in spite of our faults and failures, in spite of moments of shame and brokenness, sometimes in spite of our very selves, this dream includes us, has been given to us. Between Me and death, in the midst of the storms and delusions we can enter, it is easy to get lost. Everett, Pete, and Delmar seemed to be lost until they were found and so it was with the Colossian Church. Bedazzled by philosophy and scared by the law they seemed to be putting aside the dream and the promise. It's easy to do. I know I have been convinced from time to time that there is some formula to follow, some information that will fix the ills, some rule if its kept will insure success. Or if I just try hard enough I can make the dream come true sooner, faster, now.
    To the Colossians Paul wrote trying to remind them. To be a church is to be an amazing thing. It is to be a place of dreams and promises, a place of redemption and forgiveness, the place where God is bringing the promised dream. Like the Israelites of old though the dream never seems to come quickly, in fact it seems not to come at all. That is until you realize the dream is not something you make, it is something that is lived through you. And so Paul says, you were dead in trespasses, yet you have been raised. Through faith your life has begun again- this time as a dream and a promise.
    This is what Paul believed a church was, the place between life and death where lives where begun again, borne of a dream and a promise. The church was a place where the shortcomings and mistakes of life are nailed to the cross and souls living in fear find freedom to live again. Between life and death there can be faith that knows forgiveness.
    In a much more subtle way than Everett reminding his friends regarding the limitation of the State of Mississippi in regard to pardons and forgiveness, Emily Dickinson did the same. First she speaks of life, then death, and then resurrection. Yet when she speaks of each she defines them, addresses them in terms of fear. "Afraid? Of what am I afraid? Not death... Of life? Of resurrection?" Like Paul she sees resurrection as the promised dream that changes life and death. Yet unlike him she speaks of these in terms, of fear, not faith.
    The more I sat with this poem, the more intrigued I became. For all intents and purposes she is saying the same thing Paul says to the Colossians, and this is the same message the preacher gave to Pete and Delmar at the river. But she also seems to include a challenge. In her own way, a way of profound simplicity, Emily Dickinson states not only the dream, but also the challenge. For while it is true that an of us here have a dream and a promise. All of us have some version of the big rock candy mountain, the promise land, the new heaven and new earth; all of us have a mark of baptism that says come to me, a promise given to a child, you too. While we all have these we also have a choice.
    Paul knew the choice, and by her poem we can see our reclusive witness knew it as well. The choice is how we live out the dream and promise. Do we live in faith, or do we live in fear? It is not a question of whether we believe in the dream, or whether we believe the promise includes us. The question is how do you live in light of these? We have given a forgiveness bought with a price, nailed to a cross, but do we live it? Do we trust forgiveness enough to offer it without condition, without embarrassment, or punishment? Do we believe in forgiveness that much? Do we live with the people we love in the way we hope to live with them in heaven? This is the choice.
    By her poem it would seem that Emily Dickinson was aware that we don't always chose to live, as we believe. Like the old adage: to err is human, to forgive divine, while we have been given a new life borne of God, the divine, made by forgiveness, we often live on the other side, with err. And the erring is not the mistakes we make it is the fear we. take as true. I can't forgive; I have a right to be angry; they don't deserve goodness. When these words of fear become our truth, then we err.
    Paul's words to the Colossian Church about philosophy and tradition, about ideas and laws had no qualm with the ideas and laws themselves. He spends no time arguing or discussing those. His only concern is that they would replace, take the place of the dream and the promise; fear would replace faith. His fear was justified because it happens all the time. All of us have chosen fear instead of faith. When faced with the choice between forgiveness or anger, needing to choose which one has more power to carry us through life, we have all chosen anger. Not always, but certainly at times. All of us when faced with the challenge of trust have chosen to believe less about someone so to be careful.
    There is a kind of hidden truth beneath all of Paul's writings. You see, Paul didn't believe the church was a building; he didn't believe it was a tradition; he didn't believe it was a liturgy; he didn't even believe it was people per se. He believed it was the Spirit of God gathering people to live in faith not fear. In each letter hi wrote, and I believe every sermon he gave, this was his basic message. God is in our midst filling us with faith to live the gift of life. We can do this, we can live this, and we can give this away: this was the church for him. Do we always do this? No. Do we always choose faith instead of fear? No. Yet in Jesus Christ we can. We can be the amazing new life borne of forgiveness that is God's gift to the world. In Jesus Christ, we can be such a place, such a moment, where dreams and promises take flesh and dwell amongst us. Amen.


The New Self

The Rev. Fred G. Garry - August 19, 2001
Texts: Jeremiah 38 and Colossians 3

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there 's a pair of us--don't tell!
They 'd banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!
                    - Emily Dickinson


    No one likes to be the bearer of bad news. Perhaps this comes from the ancient tradition of the kings; they would put to death the messenger bearing bad news. Such traditions leave a deep impression. So does the notion of not wanting to hurt people. To bear bad news is to inflict a certain amount of suffering. Most people begin such an arduous task by saying, "I hate to do this, I didn't want to be the one," or other such confessions of regret. To be the one to bring bad news is not something sought out by many.
    There are those who seem to find a kind of macabre reveling in such duties. This is referred to in our house as an obvious need for psychotherapy. I always try to remember this when I read Jeremiah the last prophet of Judah. Most every true prophet is not a volunteer, most come haltingly hence the story of Jonah and the whale, Elijah and the cave, and other moments where those who were called to bring a prophetic word balked and said, "find somebody else." I remember this before I read Jeremiah because those words must have ever been on his tongue.
    While most prophets had the onerous duty of bringing caustic words of warning, poems of doom proclaiming judgment, Jeremiah got this job in spades. For Jeremiah's words of warning were not "repent or there will be trouble," Jeremiah's words were, "repent or not there is going to be trouble." And the trouble was the unimaginable: the destruction of Jerusalem that it would be laid to waste soon and very soon. So Jeremiah walked the city and foretold of its imminent destruction.
    Now we pick up the story of Jeremiah when his words were beginning to take hold. The local officials and royal crowd were a bit bothered by the fact that Jeremiah was telling their soldiers "there was no way to hold back the Babylonians, it is fire this time." And for all intents and purposes, speaking strictly from the vantage of group dynamics, I can see the way his words were not the best for morale. I think they had reason to be bothered with Jeremiah.
    So an arrest warrant is put out for Jeremiah and he is apprehended, bound, and then lowered into a cracked cistern. Scripture says, and Jeremiah sunk down in the mud. Now a cistern in ancient times is quite an amazing thing. Taking generations to craft, a cistern is a pear shaped hole that is chiseled into solid rock. In a land of seasonal rain a cistern was a prize and something of great value, but it was also a great risk. For during the decades it takes to make one, you run the risk of all your effort being in vain if there is a crack, fault, or fissure in the rock. So it was with the cistern they lowered Jeremiah into after decades of hard work they ran into a crack so all the water that was collected now simply ran out rendering the collector useless.
    Bound and lowered, sitting in the mud Jeremiah was left to share his message with the empty cistern. Now it could have just been his frame of mind. I can't believe Jeremiah was filled with happy thoughts about his captors. Or it could have been simply been spite. "Put me in a hole to change my tune, and I will simply add a verse to my song." I tend to think though that the Spirit of God and the truth were the Teal inspiration. However you look at though Jeremiah saw something in that cracked cistern. Historically speaking he saw the nation of Judah; he saw the remnants of Israel; he saw them as a people who had become ruined, cracked like the cistern. Hewn out by God, chiseled with acts of mercy and grace, the work had been in vain. Having spent decades collecting the history of Israel Jeremiah was not speaking from the cuff; he had a lot of evidence to back this up. And maybe he was right; maybe a nation can become ruined, cracked like the cistern. Yet there was something more to his statement. It wasn't just a political commentary it was and is a profound and troubling picture of what it means to be human. For beneath the politics of the day and underneath the real threat of the Babylonians there was a truth about life at any time, place, or predicament.
    Sometimes it seems we don't perceive these things without some external factors. Whatever the circumstances though this perspective took hold, the image of the cracked cistern, and lasted until the time of Paul. And this image may even be alive and well; it maybe true today.
    Paul knew of the cracked cistern and he held a view of what it means to be human in a similar light. The light was this: we are a crafted- being, carved out, and capable of receiving good things. We are like a cistern we can filled with blessings. In our day we can see goodness and mercy, riches and plenty; we can be given love and hope and faith; all these things can come to us. I conducted a wedding service yesterday. The bride and groom were open vessels, being showered not only with presents, but also with hope and joy. And fortunately, since it was an outdoor wedding, they were given the good fortune of hospitable weather, hence there, were no real showers. Yet what was truly clear in each part and gesture was that their hearts were open and they were being filled.
    Paul saw the human condition in such a fashion. We can be filled to the point of overflowing. Marriage, children, work, sometimes what appears to be dumb luck, all of these can fill us up. They fill us until our lives hits a snag, until our soul begins to fissure, and all the blessings go as quickly as they come. They still come. I can't tell you how many times I have heard someone say, "I have everything, I should be happy, I don't have any reason to be sad, but there is this emptiness." It is as if there is a crack in the cistern, a fissure in the soul, and all the good things still come, but they seem to just slip away.
    Now Paul believed this. Sometimes he called it the sin of Adam; sometimes he described it as a kind of broken relationship with God. I am sure he saw it in marriages, in careers, in family and friends - a place that feels beyond redemption. For in the ancient world, a cistern was beyond fixing. There was nothing that could be done. Decades of work were simply lost when and if a crack appeared in a cistern. Nothing could be done, but start again.
    Perhaps the gravity of such a verdict being overturned is what helped Paul stay the course; perhaps it was the power of hope overcoming hopelessness that kept his spirit from despair. Because that is what gospel was to Paul. In Jesus Christ the break beyond mending is mended, in Jesus Christ the soul beyond redemption is redeemed; the cistern once cracked is restored. The lifetime of work become a law of diminishing returns is transformed. People, who find their heart unable to live life with joy, become joyful again. The cistern fills to over flowing that was once filled with mud.
    To see such a moment is a great gift. I saw this happen in a young man, Jason. Jason was about six eight and skinny as a beanpole. He was gangly and awkward and in all sorts of trouble. In and out of juvenile hall barely graduating from high school with a long list of discipline problems, Jason was not the best candidate for a mission trip. Invited by a friend he signed up to go to Mexico with us about five years ago. Now, well aware of Jason's past the co-leader, Tim, and I wrestled long and hard whether or not to take him. He was a real risk just around town, let alone in a large group of teens in a foreign country.
    We took him. We took him and we watched this angry frustrated young man blossom. Somehow, somewhere Jason's soul even at the tender age of eighteen had become cracked. Where joy, hope, and confidence should have been there was anger, resentment, and mistrust. Yet, in a matter of days something began to change; the crack in the cistern began to be healed, restored. By the end Jason was seen as a leader, not as a problem.
    After we returned home the co-leader received a phone call from Jason's mother. She said, "I want to know where my son is? When will my son be coming home from Mexico?" Now when Tim told me this I had the same response. "We brought him home, he was on the bus, I know we had them all." Jason's mother went on though, "the kid you brought home is not mine. This one is happy. He is always singing. He helps me around the house. This is not the kid I gave you."
    This is what Paul means when he says be clothed with a new self. Discover the freedom of Christ, a kind of healing, restoring. This is why the New Testament speaks so often with words like redemption, renewal, return, repentance, resurrection. Because there is a healing that happens to us when we put on the love of God in Christ Jesus. It is transforming; and it saves what was lost, or being lost. In Jesus Christ we can be healed from a cistern that seems to collect only mud into a cistern that is source of life, a source of life giving water.
    There are times in our life it would seem when the cistern gets cracked. A few times. I have met people whose whole life has seemed that way. I think Emily Dickinson had such a person in mind with her gentle goading, "I'm nobody, are you nobody too?" Sometimes the crack in the cistern can leave a person feeling like a nobody, less than a whole person. Sometimes the cracks come in an instant, tragedies or terrible disappointments. Sometimes they come slowly and you wake up wondering how it was you ever got where you are. The truth of the matter, what binds all of these together, and most people for that matter, is this restless inability to live in joy, to live a life of wholeness.
    A crack in the cistern of the soul produces lots of responses. Some give up; some try harder, some try to fill themselves up faster so to avoid it. Some people look for excuses others look for some one or something to blame. But the truth of the matter is that we are beyond redemption. There is no way to fix the human condition. No way except one, the one that is bought with a price, yet given freely. It is never something we can do-, it is something we are offered, that surrounds us and makes us new, a new self. A new self where the joy of life is not seen in fleeting moments, but lived day to day; where the faith, hope, and love offered to us stays for a while, lingers in the well of the soul.
    How is your soul? Are you feeling cracked? Fissures form in many ways and they seem to come to all people. Remember Jeremiah today sitting the mud or Emily Dickinson's gentle poke, "are you nobody too?" You don't have to figure it -out, find it out, or even try to fix it. None of those are a path of healing. Remember Paul and his charge, put on the new self, healed and restored. Remember Jason and his new song. Remember the love of God in Christ is offered freely. Open your hearts and be restored. Let the Holy Spirit transform the cracks in the cistern so you may live in joy. Amen.

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